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 John drifted off into a deep sleep a few minutes later, his sleepless nights finally catching up to him. In his mind's eye, he saw Sherlock smiling at him, holding a small blue bundle. Even while he was sleeping, John could feel the joyous, swooping sensation in his stomach. In the dream, he held out his arms for the baby. Sherlock handed the bundle to him, but when he looked down, it wasn't a baby. It was a bomb, the same kind that had been strapped to him all those years ago by Moriarty. John's scream was unheard. Silent. He looked around, searching for Sherlock but the detective was gone. He realized now that they were on top of St. Bart'

I wasn't always like this. Cold, hollow and empty. I used to be the oppositem, to be honest. Happy, care-free, postitive and open to anyone. I was whole and untainted, not yet corrupted by the injustice of our world and it's people. My heart was light and fullof pride in who I was. Until I was swallowed in the bottomless pit that is depression. A lot of the time, you don't see it coming. One minute, you're a light-hearted soul, and the next, you feel the wieght on your sholders. The pressure to be perfect. The hate you feel for yourself and others. Each time I've felt this hopeless-ness. The confusion. The anger and frustration

I rolled over onto my back and stared at the ceiling. It had been 2 weeks since the appointment. I was now going to the shrink's office once a week and talking about things. I guess you could say, it was finally my turn to be happy and for things to go right. I smiled as I thought that. I had indeed taken a while, almost 3 years to be exact, but it had come. Kristen and Naynay were friends again, after talking it out and me bitching at them. Marc was finally backing off and stopped teasing us all the time. Ala in all, things were much better. Nothing was going to take away the pain and memories of the past, but there was a lot I could do to

Dear You >//////

1. Therepy- All Time Low 2. Open Wounds- Skillet 3. Restless Heart Syndrome- Green Day 4. I'm Not Okay- My Chemical Romance 5. Dear Agony- Breaking Benjamin 6. Papercut- Linkin Park 7. I'm Just a Kid- Simple Plan 8. Say Anything- Marianas Trench 9. Pressure- Paramore 10. Would it Even Matter- Skillet

 You were standing at the front of the cruise ship, leaving China behind. You and your family were on a two week holiday on the cruise, going to all sorts of Asian countries. Sure, it was a nice vacation and the ship was amazing, but there was no one to talk to. Your parents were always doing stuff together, which left you to your own devices. If you just had someone to hang out with for a day, maybe you'd be in a better mood. You looked out over the ocean. It shimmered and sparkled in the dazzling sunlight reflecting in it. You leaned over the rail, looking to see if you could see anything in the water. And you did. It was a giant tail, brig

 After three weeks of intense therapy, rest and talking with my mom, I decided I was ready for school and anything I had to face there. Lucas and I had been texting a lot. He would text me during class, telling me how things were going. I was being e-mailed the work from class, but it was lonely, sitting alone doing my work with no company. Lucas would usually call me after he got home, filling me in on anything I might have missed and, mainly, asking me how I feel and what's on my mind. We were becoming closer and closer. He was, at the moment, the only person I trusted besides for my mom and my therapist, Ms. Walker. She was amazing at what